In a little less than a week, I will be heading to my beach house in Cape Hatteras, NC. I was supposed to be going with 5+ friends, but amazingly they all cancelled on me within the past week… so I will be going alone. My mother will probably not like that idea, so she will probably come with me. I am a little upset, but I am reminded that things only happen for good reason, so maybe I need this alone time.

Things only happen for good reason, I just need to remember that. I guess what’s the most upsetting is I’ve tried to make it known to my friends that I really need their support now, and it seems they’ve been more distant than ever. I still have my mind wrapped around the things I saw in Joplin, and I have not rebounded 100% yet… although I doubt I will ever be the same person I was before that trip. In fact, I know it.

Yet, things only happen for good reason. I will visit the stores and shops that make me happy and keep me positive. I will meditate on the beach, morning and night or whenever I feel the urge, I will run on the beach when I feel the need to, and I will sit outside and breathe in my surroundings as much as I can. This place is the only place I have ever felt truly home.